Embryonic disenchantment

I have a temperament but where did it come from? Like most people I've mostly invented my own backstory, combining bits of the truth with huge amounts of whimsy, crafting a narrative by emphasizing certain elements and suppressing others, unconsciously or not. Autobiography, the big book of true lies. I tell this story to myself and then try it out on others, and before you know it it's real. Believing it myself makes it easier to simply claim that I've always been this way. But have I? Was I a crotchety blastula? Was I born looking askance? I'm going to try on some other personalities and see if they feel more like me. Just in the area of disposition, though, nothing further. I'm not giving up homosexuality, for instance, are you kidding? You'll have to pry cock from my cold dead fingers. It'll probably only be my own, but still.

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